Thank you so much for joining us today. As I said, community is vital. I reached a peak of having panic attacks every day, and I realized that I'm not sitting in the power. I am just doing, doing, doing, doing. Midweek, I stopped and set the timer and made myself sit. The first day I did it, I had to have a pillow on my stomach, bent over, just dealing with the emotional pain of everything. But I have been sitting in the power, and it has calmed things down. It's an amazing tool that's helping me stay centered as I dismantle my life, keeping in mind that there are things here that I have not looked at in probably 15 years. I have moved boxes from one place to another, having to do with the loss of my daughter and the loss of my late wife. It has been so hard. But I've gotten through all that with the help of sitting in silence.
And so the image that came to me as I was contemplating what I wanted to talk about today was the story I heard from a mentor of mine about a man that works in a casino. He is a dealer, and he's constantly at a table with people, doing his thing. On his breaks, he walks over to the side of the room, sits down against the wall and sets a timer for himself. He closes his eyes and goes into silence. Granted, he has trained his mind to be able to block everything out. Quieting the mind is so challenging. But that's how he survives his working with constant people, constant cacophony of the noise and the slots. I can't imagine it. But he sits in silence.
I have been holding on to that image this week, knowing that as long as I begin with a practice of showing up, even though I may not be able to completely zone out like I have in the past, I'm doing it for me. And it has helped me calm down. As I said, I did not wake up with a panic attack this morning, a literal panic attack of the breathing and the crying and the gasping for air. It’s step by step.
Sitting in the power is not a term I coined. It's a term that was coined by my mentor, Scott Milligan, who has been a medium for over 25 years. And he continues in the UK to have sessions of sitting in the power in silence after he speaks 25-30-45 minutes. He does it on Zoom. He does it whether people show up or not, and sits. Because it is key to the mental integrity of the heart.
I am so grateful that I have community around me. I'm so grateful that we are sitting in the power. Whenever I feel untethered, it is the tethering that helps bring me back to my heart. Thank you for joining me. We will continue to sit and because it is a lifeline.
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