At that moment I could finally feel it and I realized I would never, alone, fill that bottomless hole inside me. A visualization helped.

When I’m a funk, I send out an SOS to my Higher Power for more understanding and comfort. Then I let go my request so I don't weigh it down.

what does it take to stay in an open and loving heart no matter what is happening around me?

I never did figure out how to pray like a proper follower of the religion I was brought up in. I had to stop emulating everyone else's ideas